oversharing andy

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its been ages since ive done anything on neocities and its basically just that lifes been lifing and ive had no motivation to do basically anything for ages. i wont Actually overshare here but mental health sucks combined with me working against myself kind of makes everything harder than it needs to be.

uni sucked i messed that up but i can fix it and im now actually trying to help myself. problem with getting support is that you have to reach out to get it and people don't just magically know you need it and come to your rescue but hopefully in the next few weeks i'll get help with some of that ??

a lot of it is also just the really sucky parts of autism and unfortunately not getting "quirky girl autism :3" i have to constantly see online which. is a whole thing i could rant about but i wont. basically anything involving another person is really hard including talking to people to get help.

i think thats most things out of my system ig BUT its not all doom and gloom other more positive life updates include: starting guitar lessons, decorating my room, london trip to see babymetal where i also got lego trains, living with my doggy again, starting gardening. im going to lake district for a solo hike/camping next week! and starting a cooking course (i can already cook but not Officially). maybe more i cant think my point is just that not everythings Bad ig im just tired. big into house md and roblox though.

hope everyones been doing alright anyway and having a nice (lazy) sunday. ive spilled this one mug of coffee 3 times now so could be better u_u other than that its good to be back i think!